Deborah James admits she’s ‘scared to sleep’ as she receives end of life care
Dame Deborah James has shared a heartbreaking message during her ongoing battle with cancer as she receives end of life care at her parents house.
The journalist has said that she is “scared” to go to sleep and that her family are “knackered”.
Deborah has stage four bowel cancer and posted a farewell message on social media before she received a Damehood, presented to her by the Duke of Cambridge.
Since then, she has given an interview with The Sun about her current health and frankly spoke about how she and her family are coping.
Deborah, who is currently receiving care in Surrey, said: “I don't feel like I'm on my deathbed. I'm not planning on dying anytime soon, but it's just so unpredictable. I'm scared to fall asleep and that’s one of the biggest reasons I'm so tired. I am scared to go to sleep.”
One of her main priorities is her young children, 12-year-old Eloise and 14-year-old Hugo, and she is trying to keep her lowest moments away from their eyes.
She admitted: "I feel very strongly that I don't want my kids to see me agitated and distressed, I want to make sure they see me when I’m having a good day. I don’t want them to take on the burden of having to care for me, massage my legs because I can’t walk, that would break my heart."
Deborah, who is also known as Bowel Babe, said that she is in pain but thanked her family for all their help.
The star opened up: “I think my family are knackered. They have all been incredible, going above and beyond to look after me and nurse me. What I have seen from them in the last two weeks is true love, deep love. It’s overwhelming.”
She continued to praise them for their support and called her loved ones “amazing”.
The 40-year-old said that she understands that the “pressure on them, at the moment, is huge” and revealed that she “can’t do anything anymore without their help”.
When asked whether she was in pain, Deborah admitted that it was discomfort and that she’d been dealing with some stomach problems, which she called “ironic” after she has “spent the last five years talking about poo”.
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