Jessie J breaks down in tears and says 'I'm in pain every day' as she updates fans on career-threatening disease

JESSIE J got emotional as she told her fans about struggling with Ménière's disease.

The British singer, 33, broke down in tears as she revealed she lived in "pain everyday" as she battled the disorder.

Ménière’s disease is a disorder of the inner ear that causes severe dizziness vertigo, ringing in the ears, hearing loss, and a feeling of fullness or congestion in the ear, according to the NHS.

It usually affects only one ear and about 45,500 people are diagnosed with it every year in the US.

Taking to Instagram, Jessie filmed herself singing her new single I Want Love very quietly.

She teared up as she promised fans to be 'honest' and explained her speech therapist requested the video to monitor the singer's progress in her treatment.

"I was asked to send a speech therapist a video of me singing something quietly, so she could hear my voice," Jessie wrote in the caption.

"(I am not naked I am wearing a boob tube. Well more of a tube in my case) I'm laughing. Thank god. We gotta laugh. 

"The first song I sang was I want love. Just hearing myself sing it and feel so vulnerable whilst singing bought me to tears."

Jessie then revealed the shocking fact that she had not sung the song since recording it "because of the pain I am experiencing".

"Man it’s been hard not singing. It’s literally my life line and my happiness," she wrote.

"Being quiet is not something I’m good at. Or makes me feel like myself. Lord knows I’m loud af."

She added: "It was in that moment I knew I needed to be honest with myself and honest with you all about where I am at and explain what is going on… To be totally real, to have your support and love would help me get through this faster I’m sure.

"I’ve always been honest however hard it feels. It’s important to be strong enough to be weak. Especially on a platform like this."

Jessie then took to her Instagram stories to further explain her condition, saying she also suffered from acid reflux and vocal nodules – painful lumps on the vocal chords which can make it hard to sing.

The Bang, Bang singer first felt the pain of the nodules in February and then the acid reflux kicking in which the doctors tried treating.

She then went through invasive procedures, such as, eight cameras going down her nose and also put on a strict diet where she could only eat "the same six foods for three months".

While doctors remained stumped at the cause of her illnesses, Jessie went through throat swabs, acupuncture, massages and soul work.

But it was to no avail because she was "still in the same pain every day" and despite resting her voice, the nodules returned.

"I'm still seeing different doctors and doing everything I can to resolve it, I promise you that," she assured her fans.

The singer also revealed she pushed herself to her limits to ensure her single I Want Love was not delayed and filmed everything from the video and promotion in just two days.

She also won't promote the single further because she wanted to sing live and 'refuses to mime'.

"I'm not telling you for pity. But for understanding why I haven't done any promo… it's heartbroken to turn things down… I'm positive I will find the reason to all of this soon," Jessie opened up.

"I don't always get it out but I am honest and I hope you can respect that. Love you all… Stress will only make it worse. And speaking my truth since I was a little girl helps with my stress of anything."

Jessie then thanked her fans saying, "your comments are making me cry".

"Your support inspires me to keep pushing. Thank you thank you thank you," she wrote.

Jessie first told her fans about having Meniere's syndrome in December last year.

"I woke up and felt like I was completely deaf in my right ear, couldn't walk in a straight line," she said on Instagram.

"Basically I got told I had Meniere's syndrome. I know that a lot of people suffer from it and I've actually had a lot of people reach out to me and give me great advice, so I've just been laying low in silence.

"Now's the first time I've been able to sing and bear it. I just miss singing so much and being around anyone."

She described how the disorder feeling, saying "when I sing loud, it sounds like there's someone trying to run out of my ear" and the her in her ear it "sounds like someone crawled in and turned a hair dryer on".

Jessie has never been shy to share her medical woes with fan and admitting her fertility issues in 2018, the singer revealed she refused to have a hysterectomy on doctors' orders, and was put on medication. 

The former Voice Kids judge detailed her “pain and sadness” at the situation on stage at London's Royal Albert Hall in late 2018.

Where she told fans she discovered she had fertility issues nearly five years ago and wrote a song called Four Letter Word to help other people in her situation.

Jessie said to “I was told four years ago that I can't ever have children.  

“I don't tell you guys for sympathy because I'm one of millions of women and men that have gone through this and will go through this.

“It can't be something that defines us but I wanted to write this song for myself in my moment of pain and sadness but also to give myself joy, to give other people something that they can listen to in that moment when it gets really hard.

“So if you've ever experienced anything with this or have seen somebody else go through it or have lost a child, then please know you're not alone in your pain and I'm thinking of you when I sing this song.” 

The media personality confirmed her new romance with dancer Max Pham Nguyen in February, four months after splitting up from previous love, American actor Channing Tatum. 

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