Myleene Klass reveals she suffered four devastating miscarriages that left her terrified to drink water
MYLEENE Klass has revealed how she suffered four heartbreaking miscarriages that left her scared to go to the toilet.
The singer said she didn't want to drink any water during her pregnancy with third child Apollo, two, as she was terrified she would go to the loo and "see blood".
Myleene, 43, joked her son, a "rainbow" baby, was the "most scanned baby in history" after she was left devastated by four miscarriages.
The TV star discussed the horrific "stomach-tightening feeling" of losing her pregnancies with Psychologies Magazine.
The mother-of-three revealed how her third miscarriage happened while she was on air at Smooth Radio when she went to the toilet.
Myleene, who has two daughters, Ava, 14, and Hero, ten, alongside son Apollo, then went on to finish her radio show.
She explained: "I didn't know what else to do. I didn’t want to go home because I was going to have to deliver the news and break the magic."
Myleene added of her little chance to grieve: "Life doesn’t stop and I took my daughter to dance class as soon as I got back
“There was no time to catch my breath because I have children who rely on me and who I need to protect.”
After four miscarriages, Myleene fell pregnant with Apollo, who she had frequently scanned to ensure he was healthy.
She told of how her midwife joked he "was the most photographed baby in history" thanks to her numerous check ups.
"I didn’t want to drink water as I was scared of needing the loo and seeing blood," the telly host revealed of her lingering fears of miscarriage.
She said of the losses: "I remember the despair, grief and anger. And the panic. But it wasn’t until I looked back at my diaries that I realised how broken I was."
Before conceiving Apollo, Myleene described herself in "a spiral of absolute terror" after losing four pregnancies.
Next month, Myleene is expected to front a documentary about miscarriages, Myleene Klass: Miscarriage & Me, on W.
The star, who is engaged to businessman Simon Motson, will openly discuss her miscarriages on screen to help lessen the "taboo".
'YOU JUST DON'T WANT TO FEEL ALONE'
"Miscarriage still feels like a taboo. I’d like to help make these conversations a little easier," she said of the programme's launch in June.
"I’d like to help make these conversations a little easier. It can’t go on being the big dark secret that we have to carry around."
She concluded: "I am mama to seven babies, Ava, Hero, Apollo my rainbow baby and four little stars in the sky.”
The one-off documentary will see Myleene meet other women who’ve gone through the same ordeal and discuss their experiences.
She said: “I think I needed to make this because I needed to watch this. After my miscarriages I had to try and find some answers, some peace, some solidarity with people who’ve been through it too.
“You just don’t want to feel alone because the defining feeling of miscarriage is feeling alone.
“I’m getting to a point in my life where I’m finding it very tricky to find a woman who hasn’t gone through miscarriage. I’ve realised that so many women around me have had miscarriages.
“How can I know so much about their lives but not know something that’s shaped who they are and the way they are?
“Miscarriage still feels like a taboo. I’d like to help make these conversations a little easier. It can’t go on being the big dark secret that we have to carry around.”
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